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art by Lisa Brunetti, nature studies, painting butterflies in watercolor, Painting Flowers in Watercolor, the great nature project, Timeout for Art, watercolor, Working from Life
‘We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.’- Maya Angelou
The watercolor (above) patiently waited for three weeks while I waded through dengue-clouded sleep and dog-paddled back to the land of the living. Like trying to remember a dream, I now recall details of the illness that return in little snippets, “Oh, the exceptional pull of gravity on my hands and arms felt as if heavy chains kept them cemented to the mattress.” I remember seeing my puffy face in the mirror and wondering, “Who are you?” After the fever left, I walked with a touch of vertigo and often listed to the left like an injured fish swimming in circles. I walked little, as my blood pressure fell if I stood too long, so returning to the bed with easy sleep was a gift.
At times I forced myself to sit up, take my temperature, pulse, drink more liquids, and then I collapsed back into the world of dreams. Oh, the places I went in that dream-packed sleep, and though my dreams I could fly! I could roam the world and other worlds and spend time with a new cast of people! On awakening, the vivid recall kept me entertained, and I rolled back after a brief commercial break and returned a the marathon of dreams.
I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly dreaming I am a man. ~Chuang Tzu
Two days ago I peered at the watercolor in limbo and pondered the wildflowers in bloom outside. They were at their peak a month ago, and they were now going to seed and would soon be gone for another year. I could rely on reference photos, but there’s nothing (for me) better than working from life. I retrieved some flowers, revived the dried watercolor palette and began painting.
My hand shook just a bit, a detail that disgusted me. Ignoring the slight tremble, I began building layers of color in the leaves. My body adjusted to the task of holding the brush, and I quickly merged with my subject matter. I worked longer than I should have, but was glad when the power failed a few hours later and left the studio in cave-like darkness.
The pale yellow of the flowers seems dull against the white, but it will pop later when other colors are introduced in the background. I’m holding my reins for the final color, which will be blue.
Originally I planned to pair the orange colors with a wash of blue in the background, but decided to introduce another wildflower that blooms at the same time. I photographed it yesterday for National Geographic’s Great Nature Project.
Isn’t this a precious wildflower? These blue accents will be added soon, as the peak blooming period is almost finished.
This was written while waiting for my fourth blood test at the clinic, and I joined at least 50 others for the opportunity to sit in the blood-letting chair! Because this is my second battle with dengue, the doctor wants a weekly check just to confirm there are no complications. I will retrieve the results in the afternoon and hope to be snipping wildflowers and chasing butterflies (with camera) by the end of the day.
To my partners in mosquito-born illness, high fevers and crazy dreams, this song’s for you! I’m pleased to be feeling well again!
Have a great weekend, everyone, and take time to inventory a little slice of biodiversity in your area! I’ve uploaded four images and have a huge queue to go! iNaturalist.org-Lisa Brunetti
Fantastic butterflies, Z!
thanks! i like to work from life, but had to rely on photos for this butterfly. how are the longer days of spring treating you?
I love the butterfly and the quote from Chuang Tzu. I am sure you had some out of body experiences while fever stricken.
oh yes.. i really enjoyed that quote too, and there’s no telling which state i was in when down with the deep sleep and fever!
You’re doing well
thank you! one day at a time, but the hand shakes have to hurry up and go elsewhere!
YAY! 🙂 🙂
thanks!
Oh man, I bet your regular dreams are amazing, technicolor affairs. And dengue induced dreams could be downright psychedelic! And I find it unbelievable that despite weakness, high blood pressure, and the shakes, you can produce such a beautiful painting…and it’s not even beautiful enough for you yet! Egad! You are a FORCE!
oh yes, i have always had the gift of amazing dreams and of places i’ve never seen and people i’ve never met, yet in my dreams i know them well! last night i was climbing rock walls without having to hold anything.. there was a strong force holding me in place ‘look mom no hands.’ surely that speaks of ‘i am invincible and nothing is going to kick me down!’????
I’ve read that creative minds generally dream vividly. (Creative and troubled…and I know yours is the first.)
ha!
Hope you recover fully soon. Love the butterfly painting!
Alison
thanks.. one day at a time, and i’ll soon be chasing butterflies with 100 percent energy!
The butterfly already looks lovely; can’t wait to see the beauty of blue morning glories added to it. Keep on gaining strength.
i’ve always loved those morning glories, so i look forward to capturing them with paint!
While the rest of us complain about what’s wrong with this world you repeatedly point out the beauty that surrounds us all. We need you to stay healthy!
thanks hugh; i am working hard to regain my strength. thankfully i’ve had this before so know what to expect.. i was 15 years younger then, so i also know that the ole gray mare might need a lot more time in the pasture! that’s ok, because there are bees and butterflies and wildflowers out there!
Hi Lisa, so glad you are feeling better. Love the butterfly painting. I’m wondering what will emerge for and from you, artistically, when the dengue chrysallis fully breaks open?
ha! if my hand keeps shaking when i hold a brush, i might have to switch to impressionism! thanks, amiga!
Glad you are well enough to paint. Butterflies and flowers seem to be a healing form of re-entry to art.
you’re right.. yes, those are probably healing icons for me!
Good to hear you are recovering and best to see is that your humor and sensitivity to nature around you is awakened, as we get to see the most gorgeous painting emerge. Have a wonderful weekend of fanciful sleep, quiet periods of rest and wonderment.
i had more great dreams last night, and they linger for hours as if the events really happened! thanks amiga.. am heading out for breakfast!
Almost like a movie ~ have a great breakfast and trip back home!
Your diversity from realistic nature paintings to mola is remarkable. Such talent you have and let’s hope no more fever induced dreams. 😊
thanksl with the mola, i can blend accuracy with whimsy and contemporary colors. it
s a nice problem to have many options when wondering how to paint a particular subject.
beautiful painting, and love hearing the backstory of your art, great post!
Thank you; I went to the roadside to cut the blue morning glories and got side tracked photographing a grand kingfisher. After the kingfisher, I spotted a bird in a nest in a mangrove tree. i think it was a night heron.. and next came the smooth-billed ani that landed nearby… every outing here is a great immersion in nature!
Love the butterfly painting…a sort of lucid dream painting as you describe the experience. Glad to hear you are on the path to wellness.
I think the body sometimes forces us to slow down so we can take inventory and incubate. It feels good to be getting better, but it’s a slow process. Thankfully I have a great place to heal. The pelicans moved from across the river and started roosted in a nearby mangrove tree —until three days ago when they moved back to the other side of the river. I’m still trying to figure out what that was about, and all that makes sense is they wre watching over me… I’ve fought to save the mangroves, and I suspect they all know that I’m on their side. Thanks for listening!
So pleased to see you are now well enough to be back with your painting. That butterfly is beautiful and with the added blue of the morning glory it will be gorgeous.
so glad you feeling better enough to pick up your paint brush, beautiful butterfly . I’m excited to see the finish line. Love and hugs
thanks.. still have the shakes in my hand, and the little finger hurts as if it’s been broken or bruised.. very strange..
someone told me that pedernales had a lot of dengue and chikv… hope you continue to dodge the outbreaks!
z
We have those mossies here too I sure hope one don’t it hit me.
Sorry one found you but the butter flies look wonderful.
You are a survivor and may be you will build up an immunity to them.
You are a gifted artist Z, especially knowing that this was done while you were still recovering.
Beautiful butterfly painting. Hope you fully recovered, Z! 🙂
I hope that the doctors can help you to forget all attacks vs. your health and you can continue to make art without any hesitations.
Thanks! I am feeling much better/stronger and was in town today. There are many people sick or recovering, and all are complaining of sore joints and itchy skin. Dengue and chikungunya are like a blight that’s streaked through the area and sparing few. Many of my friends are hobbling like the ancients. I smile and tell them it will be over soon!
Lisa, you are scaring me! I’ve been gone for too long and come back to read you’ve been down with Dengue Fever. (I was just reading about this scary sickness.) I’m so glad that you are recovering nicely and back to your lovely work. (((O)))